My little toe

Today it's my right pinky toe.  It has no visible issue, it just hurts.  My symptoms are so bizarre.  Some come and go, others are there to annoy me almost constantly.  Like brain fog.  It lessens sometimes, like now (only way I could be writing here).  I still feel pretty dull, though.

I went to see an infectious disease specialist this morning.  He doesn't believe in chronic lyme.  He thinks it could be sleep apnea and wants me to do a sleep study.  I think that would be cool.  It seems docs really like to ignore most of my symptoms.  Anyway - LLMD tomorrow (today! I forgot to post this) !!!!! Please save me, lyme doctor :)

After my appointment I returned to my bed and fell asleep watching Mad Men.  I had a dream where I was losing my ability to remain upright, while walking around inside a hospital looking for help.  I somehow wound up outside, and down in the freshly fallen snow.  I watched as people walked by ignoring me, and purposely changed direction to avoid me.

I was also denied short term disability -  damn.  I think my doctor was just too brief on the form so hopefully that'll be fixed.  Most of the stories i've read about people with Lyme involve them going pretty broke.

So, this was a depressing post.  I'm still hanging in there, promise.